Tuesday, June 9, 2015

Sweetly Broken

At the cross, You beckon me
You draw me gently to my knees
And I am lost for words, so lost in love
I'm sweetly broken, wholly surrendered
(Jeremy Riddle-Sweetly Broken)
Today, I am broken.  Physically broken.  

Yesterday, I saw my new pain management specialist and he recommended trigger point injections to relieve my Myofascial Pain Syndrome pain in my shoulders and neck.  He assured me there was only a very slim chance (less than 5 percent) that I would not be able to make my trip today.

This morning, I woke up with severe pain in my right shoulder and arm.  Clearly, I should not bet on cards (or anything else for that matter).

I so desperately wanted to go on this trip.  To fulfill the promise I made to the company I am contracting with, to help my family financially.

But here in the space, this gap between what I want and what is reality-God meets me here.  He reminds me that my brokenness is His power.  That He can use me in any state, even with a broken body and unpredictable illness.

He also reminds me that He is sovereign over my life, my health, and my finances.  He is Jehoveh-Jireh:  The One Who Provides.

I feel broken today, but I am not without hope.  I am not with out answers.  I am not without love.

And love is everything.

So today, I will choose joy.  I will trust Him with my circumstances.  I will trust Him with our finances and our marriage.  I know He is able to provide more than I can even dream of!